你陪著我的時候想著她
你聽不見我的心在喧譁
明明我知道 卻裝作沒想法
是善體人意還是傻瓜
你陪著我的時候想著她
你看不見我的笑多受傷
世界有多大 只剩下一個她
两年⋯⋯我像个傻瓜，以为等待会换来深情地回眸，却只换来不念旧情⋯⋯
2012年2月8日星期三
2010年9月20日星期一
舍爱
有些人是不舍得放弃
有些东西是不要放弃
人，放弃了，会心痛
东西，放弃了，会遗憾
一生⋯⋯永远⋯⋯
只因每个人的心中都有所爱
被迫割爱，是一世的伤痕
若干年后回首
仍会徒留无限唏嘘
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
许多年未纵文于博客，因为生命太匆匆，文字太沉重。以为，放逐，能淡化一切悲喜。然而，今天，此时，却不经意复探故地，只因心情已不能负荷生命的重量。当下的切痛，若不在此处刻下印记，恐他日回眸，只存一片莫名的血肉模糊。
前几天翻看年少时代的剪报、发表的作品、日记、随笔，甚至高中的稚文，大学的论文，一字一句，皆是爱的结晶。
因为爱，所以坚持，所以坚韧，所以自负。
而如今，生命与文字却一同堕落。站在万丈深渊下，谁还会相信，我曾经爱过，我还能用什么要求⋯⋯赎爱
因为不能赎爱⋯⋯只能舍爱
但我不认命
永远不会⋯⋯
有些东西是不要放弃
人，放弃了，会心痛
东西，放弃了，会遗憾
一生⋯⋯永远⋯⋯
只因每个人的心中都有所爱
被迫割爱，是一世的伤痕
若干年后回首
仍会徒留无限唏嘘
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
许多年未纵文于博客，因为生命太匆匆，文字太沉重。以为，放逐，能淡化一切悲喜。然而，今天，此时，却不经意复探故地，只因心情已不能负荷生命的重量。当下的切痛，若不在此处刻下印记，恐他日回眸，只存一片莫名的血肉模糊。
前几天翻看年少时代的剪报、发表的作品、日记、随笔，甚至高中的稚文，大学的论文，一字一句，皆是爱的结晶。
因为爱，所以坚持，所以坚韧，所以自负。
而如今，生命与文字却一同堕落。站在万丈深渊下，谁还会相信，我曾经爱过，我还能用什么要求⋯⋯赎爱
因为不能赎爱⋯⋯只能舍爱
但我不认命
永远不会⋯⋯
2005年11月3日星期四
New hairdo!
Today I rebonded my hair.... I think it doesn't turn out as good as I expected. Wanted a cute hiarstyle that will look young on me but I think it just doesnt suit me... nevermind, take it as a lesson learnt. Will just need like one month to let the hair settle and looks natural =)
2005年10月28日星期五
School holiday has started... well, not yet
From today onwards, students will not be required to report to school for lessons anymore (of cos, with exceptions for extra lessons and CCA). I am so glad... the past two month was crazy madness, busy setting papers, marking papars, updating marks and remarks and the list goes on... (except people in the same line, no one can imagine the amount of work we have even lessons has stopped).
So I am glad that all the pre-exam and post-exam activities has ended. The past one week has seen me as a 'tour guide', bringing students out of school for performances and activites, golf, dance, esplanade... exciting? Not at all, when you have a big bunch of kids to keep an eye on.
Now that the school holiday has started for the kids, we are still working. Yes, for people like me who have no invigilation and marking duties, it's normal working day everyday. 8-1.30pm... who cares what you do in school you just have to be there. I wish I can hae invigilation duties, cos those who have, they do not need to report to school even on days they dont have duties, how nice.
I cant wait for MY holiday to start on 19th Nov. MM will only have his one week after that, but then he has invigilation duties u see. Had wanted to do lotza things before the exam period ( one whole list) but miscellaneous things seems to keep coming and I still cant settle down to do them yet. Probably, before I know it, school will be reopening soon. haiz.
Am a bit worried about the streams and classes I am going to teach next year.... Hope no NT... if not I really need to jin4 bu3 all the time le. And wonder how many HCL classes I will get. sianz. it clashes with my TT CCA training. Ya, talking about my CCA, it's another blood puking experience, never came across students with such lousy attitude... kids nowadays have no sense of responsibilities at all... really cant imagine how they are going to take up roles of parents in future when they themselves cant even be morally correct.
haiz...
So I am glad that all the pre-exam and post-exam activities has ended. The past one week has seen me as a 'tour guide', bringing students out of school for performances and activites, golf, dance, esplanade... exciting? Not at all, when you have a big bunch of kids to keep an eye on.
Now that the school holiday has started for the kids, we are still working. Yes, for people like me who have no invigilation and marking duties, it's normal working day everyday. 8-1.30pm... who cares what you do in school you just have to be there. I wish I can hae invigilation duties, cos those who have, they do not need to report to school even on days they dont have duties, how nice.
I cant wait for MY holiday to start on 19th Nov. MM will only have his one week after that, but then he has invigilation duties u see. Had wanted to do lotza things before the exam period ( one whole list) but miscellaneous things seems to keep coming and I still cant settle down to do them yet. Probably, before I know it, school will be reopening soon. haiz.
Am a bit worried about the streams and classes I am going to teach next year.... Hope no NT... if not I really need to jin4 bu3 all the time le. And wonder how many HCL classes I will get. sianz. it clashes with my TT CCA training. Ya, talking about my CCA, it's another blood puking experience, never came across students with such lousy attitude... kids nowadays have no sense of responsibilities at all... really cant imagine how they are going to take up roles of parents in future when they themselves cant even be morally correct.
haiz...
2005年10月17日星期一
My 24th birthday... a day to remember
16th October, I turned 24.
September to October was a mad period for me, and I have more or less been looking forward to my BIG day (to me, it's BIG lah), partly also cos after 16th would mean work will be lesser.
For the past one week, MM had been behaving bit weirdly, I could sense that he is up to something (but dunno wat). I have thought about how he will celebrate my birthday but couldnt come up with anything... so I let myself be kept in suspense. I know MM wont disappoint me =)
September to October was a mad period for me, and I have more or less been looking forward to my BIG day (to me, it's BIG lah), partly also cos after 16th would mean work will be lesser.
For the past one week, MM had been behaving bit weirdly, I could sense that he is up to something (but dunno wat). I have thought about how he will celebrate my birthday but couldnt come up with anything... so I let myself be kept in suspense. I know MM wont disappoint me =)
2005年9月1日星期四
Happy Teachers' Day!
A follow up to the previous post, muz not forget the teachers who still held on to their position, not an easy job... So here's a hearty Happy Teachers' Day to U! If students dont appreciate u, at least I do, cos we are in the same boat =D
Work is always piling up and can never be done. Sometimes I really think teachers are so silly, to give ourselves so much work to do then grumble abt it. And all is done for the students yet they dun appreciate it! Like yesterday, I only received 4 cards from my students, much less than what i'd expected. Not that I think I'm very popular, but i will think the students should be more grateful u noe.... I really did that much more to just make them more interested in my subj.... haiz.. forget it...
Despite all these, ystr's Teachers' Day celebration was a good one. Everyone of us received a 'personalised' gift from our Principal & Vice Principal. They personally handed it to me, and shaked my hand, wishing me a happy teachers' day! Was so touched... It is a baby radio with pen holder and magnetic clip holder... very cute, would post the photos here as soon as I download it from my phone.
After the celebration, i went gai gai with MM. That's the happiest day I had since the past few stressful weeks. I really enjoyed shopping with MM at Bugis Junction (not like some guys who will wait outside the shops, MM shops with me, looks at things with me and makes comments, I like the whole experience). We took one whole afternoon's time to comb those accessories shops selling all the cute cute stuffs. MM bought me a handphone strap with my star sign (while I excused myself to the washroom), so sweet!!! I like it a lot! Thanx MM! We also bought a finger pointing pen (also from MM), we have one each, hehe, so funny, next time during morning flag raising attendance taking I can point the 'finger' at the students --> "hey u! tuck in ur shirt!" o it's gonna be fun! keke haha hehe...
Other things we bought better not disclose here, in case MM wan to keep it private. (what r u thinking? it's for his... *zip*, keke). We then went to ECP to have a stroll. The breeze there was cooling... it's such a romantic moment @.@ haha... oops...
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Today is a school holiday, Had been looking forward to it since last week cos the past few weeks had been the most stressful weeks in this term. But holiday is always short... though there's only one more day to the one week's holiday, I'm not very excited abt it... 3.5 days of course awaits me =( and then I have one extra lesson with my S2 class... students are complaining abt coming back to sch during the term break but too bad, not as if I like it but we have to finish the syllabus cos they missed out quite a few lessons during the term.
Yesterday i brought home all the works to be marked. But i didnt touch them at all today, had been lazy... lazed ard the whole day reading some newspapers and chatting with mum. Yes, chatted with mum. Haven't had some good chat with her for a long time, since the term started. Almost everyday, I reached home at ard 7-8pm, after finishing dinner and shower, it's usually 9pm plus, and I will take some time to do a bit of miscellaneous work. Soon, it'll be bedtime. Time always pass so fast. Sometimes I hate this kinda life... it's all abt work n no life... reached home at 8pm and 10 hours later will be preparing for sch again. I guess I will die if there's no term break.
Alright, super long blog today, better go prepare for tml's lessons le...
Work is always piling up and can never be done. Sometimes I really think teachers are so silly, to give ourselves so much work to do then grumble abt it. And all is done for the students yet they dun appreciate it! Like yesterday, I only received 4 cards from my students, much less than what i'd expected. Not that I think I'm very popular, but i will think the students should be more grateful u noe.... I really did that much more to just make them more interested in my subj.... haiz.. forget it...
Despite all these, ystr's Teachers' Day celebration was a good one. Everyone of us received a 'personalised' gift from our Principal & Vice Principal. They personally handed it to me, and shaked my hand, wishing me a happy teachers' day! Was so touched... It is a baby radio with pen holder and magnetic clip holder... very cute, would post the photos here as soon as I download it from my phone.
After the celebration, i went gai gai with MM. That's the happiest day I had since the past few stressful weeks. I really enjoyed shopping with MM at Bugis Junction (not like some guys who will wait outside the shops, MM shops with me, looks at things with me and makes comments, I like the whole experience). We took one whole afternoon's time to comb those accessories shops selling all the cute cute stuffs. MM bought me a handphone strap with my star sign (while I excused myself to the washroom), so sweet!!! I like it a lot! Thanx MM! We also bought a finger pointing pen (also from MM), we have one each, hehe, so funny, next time during morning flag raising attendance taking I can point the 'finger' at the students --> "hey u! tuck in ur shirt!" o it's gonna be fun! keke haha hehe...
Other things we bought better not disclose here, in case MM wan to keep it private. (what r u thinking? it's for his... *zip*, keke). We then went to ECP to have a stroll. The breeze there was cooling... it's such a romantic moment @.@ haha... oops...
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Today is a school holiday, Had been looking forward to it since last week cos the past few weeks had been the most stressful weeks in this term. But holiday is always short... though there's only one more day to the one week's holiday, I'm not very excited abt it... 3.5 days of course awaits me =( and then I have one extra lesson with my S2 class... students are complaining abt coming back to sch during the term break but too bad, not as if I like it but we have to finish the syllabus cos they missed out quite a few lessons during the term.
Yesterday i brought home all the works to be marked. But i didnt touch them at all today, had been lazy... lazed ard the whole day reading some newspapers and chatting with mum. Yes, chatted with mum. Haven't had some good chat with her for a long time, since the term started. Almost everyday, I reached home at ard 7-8pm, after finishing dinner and shower, it's usually 9pm plus, and I will take some time to do a bit of miscellaneous work. Soon, it'll be bedtime. Time always pass so fast. Sometimes I hate this kinda life... it's all abt work n no life... reached home at 8pm and 10 hours later will be preparing for sch again. I guess I will die if there's no term break.
Alright, super long blog today, better go prepare for tml's lessons le...
Can u be a Teacher?
I was reading our Principal's weekly note and found the following quotes he posted quite meaningful...
TEACHER:
…must stand above all students, yet be on their level
... must be able to do 180 things not connected with the subject being taught
... must run on coffee, coke and leftovers,
... must communicate vital knowledge to all students daily and be right most of the time
... must have more time for others than for herself/himself
... must have a smile that can endure through pay cuts, problematic children, and worried parents
... must go on teaching when parents question every move and others are not supportive
Quite true... can u be one? Many people jump into this line because it's hard to find a better job with the same pay in the private sector, the question is... are u prepared for the job? R u fitted for the job? This is a profession that requires much more than just knowledge and skills....
TEACHER:
…must stand above all students, yet be on their level
... must be able to do 180 things not connected with the subject being taught
... must run on coffee, coke and leftovers,
... must communicate vital knowledge to all students daily and be right most of the time
... must have more time for others than for herself/himself
... must have a smile that can endure through pay cuts, problematic children, and worried parents
... must go on teaching when parents question every move and others are not supportive
Quite true... can u be one? Many people jump into this line because it's hard to find a better job with the same pay in the private sector, the question is... are u prepared for the job? R u fitted for the job? This is a profession that requires much more than just knowledge and skills....
2005年8月14日星期日
Farewell PP...
PP died.
太快了，让我有点措手不及。
Dad says when he went out just now, ard 5pm, she was still alive, panting for breath thou. But when he came back half an hour later, she was already still, and.... I touched her... and suddenly, I felt so scared, she was very cold. This is the first time i touched a dead body.... I was really scared.
本来想把她埋了的，但妈说那是犯法的，地不能随便乱挖。没办法。妈说，把所有的东西都给她带上吧，路上也好走。所以，我把所有的食物、用具、beddings, 还有笼子都一起包了起来。然后放在楼下的……哎。
Even though the avergae life span of a hamster is 1-2 years, I still felt that my hamster could have lived longer, if I had taken better care of it, if I had stayed at home more often, if I had given her more time, if I had shower her with more care and concern. PP would be a happier hamster. I used to play with her everyday when I was in NIE hall. I used to wash her cage as often as twice a week (being a lazy person like me). But after I moved home, got attached, and started my teaching life, I have so many things be be busy with that I really negelected her. And all these are just excuses. Lousy excuses. I have not fulfilled my responsibility and commitment. It is my fault. I am guilty.
我想我再也不会养小动物了。以前我很想要一只小狗，但是我知道我还是不适合养。
因为我无法承受一个生活中的生命从我身边离开的现实。
PP,走好了。下辈子找个好主人。
太快了，让我有点措手不及。
Dad says when he went out just now, ard 5pm, she was still alive, panting for breath thou. But when he came back half an hour later, she was already still, and.... I touched her... and suddenly, I felt so scared, she was very cold. This is the first time i touched a dead body.... I was really scared.
本来想把她埋了的，但妈说那是犯法的，地不能随便乱挖。没办法。妈说，把所有的东西都给她带上吧，路上也好走。所以，我把所有的食物、用具、beddings, 还有笼子都一起包了起来。然后放在楼下的……哎。
Even though the avergae life span of a hamster is 1-2 years, I still felt that my hamster could have lived longer, if I had taken better care of it, if I had stayed at home more often, if I had given her more time, if I had shower her with more care and concern. PP would be a happier hamster. I used to play with her everyday when I was in NIE hall. I used to wash her cage as often as twice a week (being a lazy person like me). But after I moved home, got attached, and started my teaching life, I have so many things be be busy with that I really negelected her. And all these are just excuses. Lousy excuses. I have not fulfilled my responsibility and commitment. It is my fault. I am guilty.
我想我再也不会养小动物了。以前我很想要一只小狗，但是我知道我还是不适合养。
因为我无法承受一个生活中的生命从我身边离开的现实。
PP,走好了。下辈子找个好主人。
"Treasure things while you still have them"
Another lousy day
Today is another lousy day.
My feet are still swollen and painful, the bites are still itchy, walking is still painful and I wonder how I am going to go to work like this tml.
My hamster is very sick... last nite before I slept I went to take a look at her and she was panting heavily. PP has been sick for some time, has infection in her right eye. I cleaned away lotza pus in that eye ystr, poor PP.
Then I realised she has been without water for one whole day. Mum says she was still kicking lively a day ago. That makes me feel really guilty. I haven't been taking good care of her recently, and she muz be sad.
Today she refused to drink and eat, and is totally weak to even walk ard, I think she doesn't have many days ahead... and I feel really sad. She has been with me for a year, since I bought her in NIE, and seeing a life leaving u is something which I have not experienced personaly before, not animals, not human.
I dunno how long she can hold on, but I defnitely wont want to discard her into the rubbish chute even if she dies. That's too cruel.
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The weekends passed so fast, a few hours later it will be the start of another week again. I have tons of things to do, but dun feel like doing at all. No mood, really no mood. Just like when u have no appetite for any food, u really dun want to eat. Haiz.
"Don't take things for granted"
My feet are still swollen and painful, the bites are still itchy, walking is still painful and I wonder how I am going to go to work like this tml.
My hamster is very sick... last nite before I slept I went to take a look at her and she was panting heavily. PP has been sick for some time, has infection in her right eye. I cleaned away lotza pus in that eye ystr, poor PP.
Then I realised she has been without water for one whole day. Mum says she was still kicking lively a day ago. That makes me feel really guilty. I haven't been taking good care of her recently, and she muz be sad.
Today she refused to drink and eat, and is totally weak to even walk ard, I think she doesn't have many days ahead... and I feel really sad. She has been with me for a year, since I bought her in NIE, and seeing a life leaving u is something which I have not experienced personaly before, not animals, not human.
I dunno how long she can hold on, but I defnitely wont want to discard her into the rubbish chute even if she dies. That's too cruel.
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The weekends passed so fast, a few hours later it will be the start of another week again. I have tons of things to do, but dun feel like doing at all. No mood, really no mood. Just like when u have no appetite for any food, u really dun want to eat. Haiz.
"Don't take things for granted"
2005年8月13日星期六
A lousy day
Today is a lousy-turned-happy-turned-lousy day.
This morning, I went for the MOE's sports for life event (my sch signed up for it so as a young person, I have no reason not to support rite?) I participated in the 2km walk test. The event was from 7am to 10am.
I took the school bus at 730am (because dunno how to go there myself) and we reached NIE old campus stadium at ard 745am. There were already many people waiting for their turn to take the walk test and the run test. We saw some of our colleagues there, they were there very early, heard some of them reached ard 645am,and they took the first round of the test. Then we realised we were quite late, cos our no are 400plus (mine is 485), and we were the last batch of people to be tested. Haiz, that would mean we have to wait for close to 500 people to finish their test before it will be our turn! (500 cos some were taking run test).
We were told that the approximate waiting time is an hour but it was longer than that. We started our test ard 945am, after the long wait. My PE HOD was very nice, he brought newspapers and drinks for us to keep us 'occupied' but i was too tired to read it. I took a short nap on the audience stand! (and therefore did not even hear MM's call). The weather was hot, and I only had some bread as breakfast, not enough for a mega eater like me =(
But the happy thing was, we went to the nearby Adam Road's Prata Place for breakfast. This eating house offers over a hundred different kinds of prata, the most expensive ones cost $6. Too exp for me thou I wanted to try the Italian prata (think looking from the ingredients, it will taste like pizza). Had lime juice also, not bad but too on the sweet side. So it was a happy meal experience, with the colleagues who went for the test. And then, during the meal, we calculated (rough calculation) our scores to see which category we are in and I was surprised to find out I got a GOLD! I can't believe it u noe... but I know my heart beat rate was quite good- -> 113.
Then comes the lousy part. Went to Bishan Park for a walk with MM on friday nite, and ended up with 40 mosquito kisses (without realising it at that time, I only felt a needle poke kinda pain but cun find where the bites are, it only start hurting this morning). MM was untouched cos he wore long pants with socks and shoes! And I wore skirt! and sandals! So I got it loh. And noe wat, the mosquitoes there are really big mega poisonous. The bites I got are unlike the normal ones I had in the past, it bc untorerably itchy and painful today. I wore sports shoes and worse, I cant even scratch them! As time goes by it bc more n more itchy, so much so that when I reached home ard 930pm, I spent 15mins to give each and everyone of it a good scratch! Cant help it, know I shdn't do it but cant bear the itch. Then it bc painful, feet swollen, and felt hot, burning sensation and bleed. MM told me to run them under cold water, tried it and it feels a little better. Nevertheless, had some difficulty walking (cos it feels like sun burnt skin when i walk). U may think I'm overexaggerating it but it's true! Dun believe, wait u get 40bites from these monster blood suckers then u noe...
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Went to Suntec City to meet up with my parents for a Health Exhibition after the walk test. Nothing much interesting, except to discover one machine which dries fresh fruits and flowers and a fruit peeler plus cutter and core extractor (which works 3 at the same time). We had a hearty buffet porridge at Congree downstairs, weekend rate was $9.80. Not bad, cos they have a wide variety of dishes like Hokkein, Hainanese, Cantonese style. And desserts too.
After that, we went to Bugis Junction's M1 Shop to look at the phones on promotion as well as to change my current Prime plan to Suntalk 150. Wanted to change my phone to Siemens SF65 but then they say no more stock. Bu4 gan1 xin1 u noe, so I made a reservation and hopefully, in two weeks time I can get the phone. It isn't one with great functions but it has good camera functions and looks elegant enough. The phones that I'm using now are quite obselete already, so it's time to change to a more "up to date" one. =)
So that's how I spent my Saturday. Waking up early (no extra sleep/rest), itchy feets, no hp, got a Gold award for the walk test and ending with 《天龙八部》's final episode.
Yes, next week will be 《射雕英雄传》, dunno nice anot, but dun think will be as nice as 《天龙八部》,cos dun like some of the actors in the show.
This morning, I went for the MOE's sports for life event (my sch signed up for it so as a young person, I have no reason not to support rite?) I participated in the 2km walk test. The event was from 7am to 10am.
I took the school bus at 730am (because dunno how to go there myself) and we reached NIE old campus stadium at ard 745am. There were already many people waiting for their turn to take the walk test and the run test. We saw some of our colleagues there, they were there very early, heard some of them reached ard 645am,and they took the first round of the test. Then we realised we were quite late, cos our no are 400plus (mine is 485), and we were the last batch of people to be tested. Haiz, that would mean we have to wait for close to 500 people to finish their test before it will be our turn! (500 cos some were taking run test).
We were told that the approximate waiting time is an hour but it was longer than that. We started our test ard 945am, after the long wait. My PE HOD was very nice, he brought newspapers and drinks for us to keep us 'occupied' but i was too tired to read it. I took a short nap on the audience stand! (and therefore did not even hear MM's call). The weather was hot, and I only had some bread as breakfast, not enough for a mega eater like me =(
But the happy thing was, we went to the nearby Adam Road's Prata Place for breakfast. This eating house offers over a hundred different kinds of prata, the most expensive ones cost $6. Too exp for me thou I wanted to try the Italian prata (think looking from the ingredients, it will taste like pizza). Had lime juice also, not bad but too on the sweet side. So it was a happy meal experience, with the colleagues who went for the test. And then, during the meal, we calculated (rough calculation) our scores to see which category we are in and I was surprised to find out I got a GOLD! I can't believe it u noe... but I know my heart beat rate was quite good- -> 113.
Then comes the lousy part. Went to Bishan Park for a walk with MM on friday nite, and ended up with 40 mosquito kisses (without realising it at that time, I only felt a needle poke kinda pain but cun find where the bites are, it only start hurting this morning). MM was untouched cos he wore long pants with socks and shoes! And I wore skirt! and sandals! So I got it loh. And noe wat, the mosquitoes there are really big mega poisonous. The bites I got are unlike the normal ones I had in the past, it bc untorerably itchy and painful today. I wore sports shoes and worse, I cant even scratch them! As time goes by it bc more n more itchy, so much so that when I reached home ard 930pm, I spent 15mins to give each and everyone of it a good scratch! Cant help it, know I shdn't do it but cant bear the itch. Then it bc painful, feet swollen, and felt hot, burning sensation and bleed. MM told me to run them under cold water, tried it and it feels a little better. Nevertheless, had some difficulty walking (cos it feels like sun burnt skin when i walk). U may think I'm overexaggerating it but it's true! Dun believe, wait u get 40bites from these monster blood suckers then u noe...
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Went to Suntec City to meet up with my parents for a Health Exhibition after the walk test. Nothing much interesting, except to discover one machine which dries fresh fruits and flowers and a fruit peeler plus cutter and core extractor (which works 3 at the same time). We had a hearty buffet porridge at Congree downstairs, weekend rate was $9.80. Not bad, cos they have a wide variety of dishes like Hokkein, Hainanese, Cantonese style. And desserts too.
After that, we went to Bugis Junction's M1 Shop to look at the phones on promotion as well as to change my current Prime plan to Suntalk 150. Wanted to change my phone to Siemens SF65 but then they say no more stock. Bu4 gan1 xin1 u noe, so I made a reservation and hopefully, in two weeks time I can get the phone. It isn't one with great functions but it has good camera functions and looks elegant enough. The phones that I'm using now are quite obselete already, so it's time to change to a more "up to date" one. =)
So that's how I spent my Saturday. Waking up early (no extra sleep/rest), itchy feets, no hp, got a Gold award for the walk test and ending with 《天龙八部》's final episode.
Yes, next week will be 《射雕英雄传》, dunno nice anot, but dun think will be as nice as 《天龙八部》,cos dun like some of the actors in the show.
2005年8月6日星期六
A tiring day...
Today I went to the Carnival@Marina with my parents.
It was a tiring trip, with a combination of many unpleasant things all taking place at the same time.
First of all, I am sick. I have been sneezing and my nose have been running non-stop since this morning, and I had a sore sore throat. Mum says it muz be the dozens of longans i ate the nite before, possible, cos longan is heaty fruit, not good to eat too many. Anyway, overdose of anything is no good, so serves me right =(
Then, it was the trip itself... we were there too tooo toooooo early.........
Though the whole carnival was supposed to start from 10am onwards, the only event that starts at this time is Auto Drag, and my parents are not interested in cars at all. The main show starts at 5pm, though programmes like Total Defence exhibition is in the afternoon. Okie, that's fine, but I still do not think we need to be that early, almost the first one to be there!
Mum explained why we need to be early: they want to be back home in time for the 《天龙八部》which starts at 9pm. Alright, fine, that's reasonable, but to set off from home right after breakfast is still toooooooo early.... my Kiasu parents, haiz...
Before we set off, I actually checked the programme schedule and suggested that since there's still more than enough time, maybe we can go visit the New National Library first before going to the carnival. I just didn't want to walk around the island in such a hot weather, and today is really hotter than any other day (I may not wrong, cos have been hiding in air con room during normal working days, but at least, that's how i felt, today is hot, full-stop). I seldom sweat like that and I hated the sticky feeling. MM knows that very well *wink* And when one feels frustrated and irritated, nothing will be enjoyable. I was grumbling inside me (dare not say it out, cos scared Dad will be unahppy).
But last min, Dad changed his mind, and decided to go for the carnival first. They wanted to wait for the Zheng Ho exhibition next month before paying the new lib a visit. And alas, I made a big mistake which added to the unhappy experience. I mistaken Marina South as the space besides the Esplanade! Everyone knows how far it is to walk from City Hall MRT to Esplanade, imagine how malu i looked standing at the empty space there. Then how? By then, I had used up 2 packets of tissues and was still tearing non stop, I didn't want to walk back to take the MRT again! So we took a cab, thinking at least it would save us the time and energy to walk back to the train station and take the bus after that.
We must be really down on our luck. We were stopped by the police halfway, cos the Taxi dun have the official car label to enter the compound, damn! We had to talk 10 mins to the bus stop to take Bus 400! What's the diffc then? I dun noe. The whole thing never start right from the beginning, and all my mood was spoilt before even reaching that stupid place.
We were given a map at the entrance but I think the person who draw up the map shouldl be hammered. Marina South is soooo damn big! Every "village" is far far apart that we can only see the tents from afar, yet they look so close to each other on the silly map. And because we were too early, many stalls were not set up yet. All the staffs there were busying preparing for the Opening Ceremony by Mr Nathan at 6pm.
I think I have to stop my grumbling and complains here, cos this blog will goes on and on if i continues. MM will be hearing it for the second time cos I just spent half an hour rattering about all these to him (thanx for the patience dear).
Now the lesson learnt.... Never be too early for any event, unless it's a first-come-first-serve one. The "early birds gets the worms" theory doesn't apply to the former scenario. And also, the gist of any event will always be after the Offical Opening Ceremony (like tml nite, there'll be F.I.R in the concert but I won't want to go there again).
For those of you who are still enthusiatic about paying that carnival a visit, the suggested minimum touring time needed is 4hours but I tell u, it'll take longer than that, I took 5 hours to briefly covered most parts before dragging myself home, so be prepared... dun say I never warn you first...
And am so dead tired now with piles of work undone (suppsoed to do some today), but one thing is good (the only good thing to feel happy about) --> it is a family day =)
It was a tiring trip, with a combination of many unpleasant things all taking place at the same time.
First of all, I am sick. I have been sneezing and my nose have been running non-stop since this morning, and I had a sore sore throat. Mum says it muz be the dozens of longans i ate the nite before, possible, cos longan is heaty fruit, not good to eat too many. Anyway, overdose of anything is no good, so serves me right =(
Then, it was the trip itself... we were there too tooo toooooo early.........
Though the whole carnival was supposed to start from 10am onwards, the only event that starts at this time is Auto Drag, and my parents are not interested in cars at all. The main show starts at 5pm, though programmes like Total Defence exhibition is in the afternoon. Okie, that's fine, but I still do not think we need to be that early, almost the first one to be there!
Mum explained why we need to be early: they want to be back home in time for the 《天龙八部》which starts at 9pm. Alright, fine, that's reasonable, but to set off from home right after breakfast is still toooooooo early.... my Kiasu parents, haiz...
Before we set off, I actually checked the programme schedule and suggested that since there's still more than enough time, maybe we can go visit the New National Library first before going to the carnival. I just didn't want to walk around the island in such a hot weather, and today is really hotter than any other day (I may not wrong, cos have been hiding in air con room during normal working days, but at least, that's how i felt, today is hot, full-stop). I seldom sweat like that and I hated the sticky feeling. MM knows that very well *wink* And when one feels frustrated and irritated, nothing will be enjoyable. I was grumbling inside me (dare not say it out, cos scared Dad will be unahppy).
But last min, Dad changed his mind, and decided to go for the carnival first. They wanted to wait for the Zheng Ho exhibition next month before paying the new lib a visit. And alas, I made a big mistake which added to the unhappy experience. I mistaken Marina South as the space besides the Esplanade! Everyone knows how far it is to walk from City Hall MRT to Esplanade, imagine how malu i looked standing at the empty space there. Then how? By then, I had used up 2 packets of tissues and was still tearing non stop, I didn't want to walk back to take the MRT again! So we took a cab, thinking at least it would save us the time and energy to walk back to the train station and take the bus after that.
We must be really down on our luck. We were stopped by the police halfway, cos the Taxi dun have the official car label to enter the compound, damn! We had to talk 10 mins to the bus stop to take Bus 400! What's the diffc then? I dun noe. The whole thing never start right from the beginning, and all my mood was spoilt before even reaching that stupid place.
We were given a map at the entrance but I think the person who draw up the map shouldl be hammered. Marina South is soooo damn big! Every "village" is far far apart that we can only see the tents from afar, yet they look so close to each other on the silly map. And because we were too early, many stalls were not set up yet. All the staffs there were busying preparing for the Opening Ceremony by Mr Nathan at 6pm.
I think I have to stop my grumbling and complains here, cos this blog will goes on and on if i continues. MM will be hearing it for the second time cos I just spent half an hour rattering about all these to him (thanx for the patience dear).
Now the lesson learnt.... Never be too early for any event, unless it's a first-come-first-serve one. The "early birds gets the worms" theory doesn't apply to the former scenario. And also, the gist of any event will always be after the Offical Opening Ceremony (like tml nite, there'll be F.I.R in the concert but I won't want to go there again).
For those of you who are still enthusiatic about paying that carnival a visit, the suggested minimum touring time needed is 4hours but I tell u, it'll take longer than that, I took 5 hours to briefly covered most parts before dragging myself home, so be prepared... dun say I never warn you first...
And am so dead tired now with piles of work undone (suppsoed to do some today), but one thing is good (the only good thing to feel happy about) --> it is a family day =)
2005年7月27日星期三
师严何在？
今天我没收了一把吉他。
那是一把属于3A（中三普通学术班）的吉他。
没收的原因很简单，但也很让人不可思议。简单是因为他们在我的课上弹吉他，不可思议的是他们竟然敢在我课上弹吉他。之前已经有同学尝试这么做，我发出了警告：要是再让我看到他们触碰那把吉他，那将会是我没收过最大件的物品。
显然，他们没有把我的话当一回事儿。
我纳闷的是：他们是真没用脑呢，还是以为我可以“吃”，竟然敢在我上课转身写白板时弹吉他？他们当我是聋子了？你可以想象我的火冒三丈。
该怪自己“管教无方”吗？一向来，我对着一班都采取“怀柔政策”，因为知道普通班的学生都有一些背景上的问题，性格较叛逆，吃软不吃硬，也希望能以较尊重他们的方式和他们建立较健康的关系。显然，这一招不太行得通了。也许，他们因此以为我是可以“玩玩”的老师。所以，这一次我下定决心一定要来个杀一儆百。
尽管其他的同学为他求情，我还是坚持要那名平常就不专心听课的学生交出吉他。也许他们都看到我脸上的坚持与严肃，所以无可奈何地把吉他交出来。我把吉他放在教室桌前，心想下课再带走，谁知下课前我循了一遍课室，吉他竟然不翼而飞了！
哇！我气疯了！我没收的东西竟然有人敢擅自取走！下课后我把那名学生叫出来，责问他吉他的去向，他告诉我吉他不是他的，是隔壁班同学的。我要他到隔壁班把吉他给我要回来。想必隔壁班的老师很凶，他磨蹭了好久，看出我是不会让步的，才硬着头皮出要了。接着我又把那个把吉他取走的学生叫出来训了一顿。
这真是让我气恼的一天。现在的学生太放肆了！师严在哪儿呢？他们还知道什么叫尊师重道吗？唉……世风日下呀，这些学生离开学校踏入社会后，会是怎么样的一群人？会给社会制造多少问题？他们知道自己正在亲手埋葬自己的未来吗？什么时候他们才会成熟、醒悟呢？
是时候加强对他们的管束了。那是他们咎由自取的。
那是一把属于3A（中三普通学术班）的吉他。
没收的原因很简单，但也很让人不可思议。简单是因为他们在我的课上弹吉他，不可思议的是他们竟然敢在我课上弹吉他。之前已经有同学尝试这么做，我发出了警告：要是再让我看到他们触碰那把吉他，那将会是我没收过最大件的物品。
显然，他们没有把我的话当一回事儿。
我纳闷的是：他们是真没用脑呢，还是以为我可以“吃”，竟然敢在我上课转身写白板时弹吉他？他们当我是聋子了？你可以想象我的火冒三丈。
该怪自己“管教无方”吗？一向来，我对着一班都采取“怀柔政策”，因为知道普通班的学生都有一些背景上的问题，性格较叛逆，吃软不吃硬，也希望能以较尊重他们的方式和他们建立较健康的关系。显然，这一招不太行得通了。也许，他们因此以为我是可以“玩玩”的老师。所以，这一次我下定决心一定要来个杀一儆百。
尽管其他的同学为他求情，我还是坚持要那名平常就不专心听课的学生交出吉他。也许他们都看到我脸上的坚持与严肃，所以无可奈何地把吉他交出来。我把吉他放在教室桌前，心想下课再带走，谁知下课前我循了一遍课室，吉他竟然不翼而飞了！
哇！我气疯了！我没收的东西竟然有人敢擅自取走！下课后我把那名学生叫出来，责问他吉他的去向，他告诉我吉他不是他的，是隔壁班同学的。我要他到隔壁班把吉他给我要回来。想必隔壁班的老师很凶，他磨蹭了好久，看出我是不会让步的，才硬着头皮出要了。接着我又把那个把吉他取走的学生叫出来训了一顿。
这真是让我气恼的一天。现在的学生太放肆了！师严在哪儿呢？他们还知道什么叫尊师重道吗？唉……世风日下呀，这些学生离开学校踏入社会后，会是怎么样的一群人？会给社会制造多少问题？他们知道自己正在亲手埋葬自己的未来吗？什么时候他们才会成熟、醒悟呢？
是时候加强对他们的管束了。那是他们咎由自取的。
2005年4月14日星期四
yummy.. and i do like it!
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2005年1月23日星期日
2004年11月25日星期四
《旺角黑夜》
今天看了由尔东升导演执导的《旺角黑夜》，整部剧并不特别精彩，情节不紧凑，故事性也不强。但是，剧末张柏芝说的一句话却触动了我。
在香港住了6年，度过了童年最无邪的日子，我对香港的感情是难以磨灭的。对以上的这句话更是感触良多。朋友们都说：香港是个天堂，吃喝玩乐，人间仙境。也许对于旅客而言，香港的确是个令人响往的好地方，但是对于许多抱着到那儿谋生、落户的人而言，香港却是一个被污染了的天堂，正如它的空气一般，是看似天堂的人间炼狱。在香港，人生的悲欢离合，人间的生离死别，各种残酷的现实每天都在上演。只是你选择知道或不知道而已。再看看现在的社会、政治乱象，已非昔日之风貌。
然而，香港对许多人而言仍然是难以抗拒的魅力之都，无怨无悔地到这块土地上--寻梦。
香港为什么叫香港？
在香港住了6年，度过了童年最无邪的日子，我对香港的感情是难以磨灭的。对以上的这句话更是感触良多。朋友们都说：香港是个天堂，吃喝玩乐，人间仙境。也许对于旅客而言，香港的确是个令人响往的好地方，但是对于许多抱着到那儿谋生、落户的人而言，香港却是一个被污染了的天堂，正如它的空气一般，是看似天堂的人间炼狱。在香港，人生的悲欢离合，人间的生离死别，各种残酷的现实每天都在上演。只是你选择知道或不知道而已。再看看现在的社会、政治乱象，已非昔日之风貌。
然而，香港对许多人而言仍然是难以抗拒的魅力之都，无怨无悔地到这块土地上--寻梦。
2004年11月16日星期二
2004年11月12日星期五
这是真的吗？我真不敢相信。
今天在网上看到了这样一则新闻：贾静雯怀孕了，未婚先孕，男友是一家公司的少东。
一直以来，大家都认为贾静雯的感情生活简单，甚至单调。年近30了，白马王子还遥遥无期，谁知其实她早已经找到了她的依属。本来，我是该为她高兴的，但是令我难以相信、难以接受的是她竟然是奉子成婚。她的美好形象刹时间在我的心目中瓦解了。我一直认为她是娱乐圈中少数洁身自爱的女性，但是我错了。也许艺人都是表里不一的吧。
现在，我也只能祝福她。虽然我并不看好一个富家子弟能够有多少才能多大能耐多少专情，我还是希望她能过得幸福、快乐！更希望，婚后她不要息影。贾静雯是难得的好演员，如果她就此退出娱乐圈，那真是太可惜了。
一直以来，大家都认为贾静雯的感情生活简单，甚至单调。年近30了，白马王子还遥遥无期，谁知其实她早已经找到了她的依属。本来，我是该为她高兴的，但是令我难以相信、难以接受的是她竟然是奉子成婚。她的美好形象刹时间在我的心目中瓦解了。我一直认为她是娱乐圈中少数洁身自爱的女性，但是我错了。也许艺人都是表里不一的吧。
现在，我也只能祝福她。虽然我并不看好一个富家子弟能够有多少才能多大能耐多少专情，我还是希望她能过得幸福、快乐！更希望，婚后她不要息影。贾静雯是难得的好演员，如果她就此退出娱乐圈，那真是太可惜了。
2004年8月20日星期五
Dwarf Hamster!!!
Yeah!!! I finally made my decision and I bought my hamster!
It has been a difficult desicion because I could not decide if i should buy a hamster or a dwarf hamster, to buy one hamster or a pair so that they can keep each other accompanied. LX did not want to share because her family will not allow her to keep animals. Mine too, but I really like the hamsters so much I will just buy first, it's not like I bought a dog, my parents should be able to accommodate a tiny family member right? hee =D
This tiny furry mice costs me $15 excluding the food and beddings. And I even went to Boon lay Central pet shop to get a pink adorable cage with running wheel for her! See how I doted on her? All these cost me close to 40bucks!
A bit "heart pain" i admit, but she's just too cute to resist.... Hope she doesn't grow up and grow old that fast, cos the pet shop owner told me the average life span of a hamster is about 1~2years... sob sob, that would mean by the time I graduate from NIE, my hamster will be in her middle age or even old age already, how sad rite? Poor little mice...
It has been a difficult desicion because I could not decide if i should buy a hamster or a dwarf hamster, to buy one hamster or a pair so that they can keep each other accompanied. LX did not want to share because her family will not allow her to keep animals. Mine too, but I really like the hamsters so much I will just buy first, it's not like I bought a dog, my parents should be able to accommodate a tiny family member right? hee =D
This tiny furry mice costs me $15 excluding the food and beddings. And I even went to Boon lay Central pet shop to get a pink adorable cage with running wheel for her! See how I doted on her? All these cost me close to 40bucks!
A bit "heart pain" i admit, but she's just too cute to resist.... Hope she doesn't grow up and grow old that fast, cos the pet shop owner told me the average life span of a hamster is about 1~2years... sob sob, that would mean by the time I graduate from NIE, my hamster will be in her middle age or even old age already, how sad rite? Poor little mice...
2004年8月17日星期二
Hamster!!!
I was at the Bazzar organised by the BA Club today when I passby a stall. Initially, I thought they are just selling animal food, but guess what? They have hamsters too! ahhhhhh..... those furry tiny softie babies are so damn cute.....!!!!
Ok, it's not as if I have never seen a hamster or held one in my hand, but I don't know why, I just find them exceptionally cute today... hmm...
I had a brief 'lecture' from the stall manager. Well, keeping a hamster is actually neither expensive nor troublesome. But I worry about not having enough time to take good care of them, and on top of that, my parents dislike animals, especially my mum, she's afraid of mice and mice-look-alike creatures!
haiz... I didn't buy one eventually, but am still thinking of buying one and keeping it in hall (to keep me accompanied)... at least for the next half of the year. If i can't bring it home next year, maybe I can just give it to someone else. I mean, no one will reject such an adorable cuttie rite?
Anyone can gimme some advice on what I should do? =(
Ok, it's not as if I have never seen a hamster or held one in my hand, but I don't know why, I just find them exceptionally cute today... hmm...
I had a brief 'lecture' from the stall manager. Well, keeping a hamster is actually neither expensive nor troublesome. But I worry about not having enough time to take good care of them, and on top of that, my parents dislike animals, especially my mum, she's afraid of mice and mice-look-alike creatures!
haiz... I didn't buy one eventually, but am still thinking of buying one and keeping it in hall (to keep me accompanied)... at least for the next half of the year. If i can't bring it home next year, maybe I can just give it to someone else. I mean, no one will reject such an adorable cuttie rite?
Anyone can gimme some advice on what I should do? =(
2004年7月26日星期一
Another milestone...
Today is my first day of appointment as a Civil Servant and Education Officer. It is also the first day I start my PGDE (Sec) course at The National Insitute of Education. Sound gloriying huh? However, I am more aware of the fact thatI am paid from this day onwards. =D Beginning today, I will be crossing another milestone in my life. Having graduated from NUS just less than 2 weeks ago, I still haven't got used to the fact that I am a graduate and trainee Teacher now. Guess it takes time. As there are ongoing freshmen orientation on campus, there's no class today, so I still haven't got a taste of how NIE life is like. Will keep on updating here!
2004年4月24日星期六
人生自古谁无死 留取丹心照汗青
今天从新闻中获知卯懿心博士逝世的消息，很难过。虽说已有心理准备，但是一个生活中熟悉的人突然间就这样烟消云散了，难免惆怅。
2003年是令人心伤的一年，我的外婆去世了，宋美玲也去世了，许多我一直认为“理所当然”的人都逝世了，走过二十载，这是我第一次感觉生命的无奈，人生的无常，世界的无情。
世事难料，也许下一刻我就会遭遇巨变，而能够留给后世什么呢？日子在浑浑噩噩中度过，从来就不曾反省走过的路是如何毫无建树。
“人生自古谁无死，留史丹青照汗青”，古人的戒言，何等精辟。
2003年是令人心伤的一年，我的外婆去世了，宋美玲也去世了，许多我一直认为“理所当然”的人都逝世了，走过二十载，这是我第一次感觉生命的无奈，人生的无常，世界的无情。
世事难料，也许下一刻我就会遭遇巨变，而能够留给后世什么呢？日子在浑浑噩噩中度过，从来就不曾反省走过的路是如何毫无建树。
“人生自古谁无死，留史丹青照汗青”，古人的戒言，何等精辟。
2004年4月2日星期五
CH4202 中国训诂学 论文
这是我呕心沥血在三天（其实严格来说是两天）内赶出来的论文。这份作业是我这学期最后一份功课，也是给我最大压力的一份。为何？哎……因为竞争呀！这是荣誉班的单元，个个都是精挑细选出来的（虽然不是绝对的），但是决不可掉以轻心！我想了好久才决定这个题目的（题目是自定的）。虽然知道有同学也做“女”部，但是我还是认为这个与我息息相关的课题将会是一个有趣的研究对象。所以……就一头栽进去了！在此献上拙作，娱乐娱乐大家。
编按：女人的命好苦哦！（以前苦，现在也是苦~）
又：文中一些“空格”是古字，因为我无法打出来，所以是manually添上去的，在此就看不到啦。
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从“女”部首看古代妇女社会地位
导论
人类历史上最古老的表意文字有四种，当今仅存的却只有中国的汉字，其他三种文字都已消失。汉字，之所以能延续至今，和其与文化之紧密联系不无关系。文字与社会之关系是文字产生的最原始依据。从文化学的角度看，文字是文化的一种载体。因为它记载了文化发展的历史轨迹和丰富成果，是传播文化的最快捷手段。文字的产生标志着社会文明的划时代进步。张世禄先生在1923年的一篇文章《文字上之古代社会观》中便指出：“居今日而欲知茫昧之古代社会，史策既无徵考，则惟有求诸古来之余形遗迹，俾可见一斑而已。……则此文字者，诚有史以前，先民遗迹之所留，曷藉以窥政俗之梗概，以补史策所未及者乎。” 可见，汉字的的文化、社会与历史代表性之重大意义。
简论文字之内涵，有三个基本要素：形、音、义。表音文字采取的是概念――语音――字形的联系路线，而表意文字采取的是概念――自然物象――字形的联系线路。中国文字属于后者，同时又建立在古代的哲学讲求“观物取象”的基础上（即取万物之象，加工成象征的意义符号），是把对抽象思维同形象思维集于一体的创字法。现存的最早汉字――甲骨文当初便是由日常生活中抽取灵感的图形文字，有着极强的叙述性。因此，从汉字中，我们看到了汉民族注重联想、类比、物性联系的经验型与理性思维。
在此文中，笔者将把焦点放在探讨汉字中“女”部首等字的产生及引申义如何反映出古代不同时期的妇女之社会地位。
正文
人类世界分为两性：男与女。但是我们都知道，在所有的文化中，皆无两性平等的现象。中国亦不例外。虽然人类在很早以前是由母系社会开始的，但是那是远古时期，在人类进入社会文明时期起始，便是由男人掌权，而女性在男性的强权下遭受到了日趋严重的压迫与剥削。这一不平等的文化现象与观念也充分地反映在汉民族的文字上。在所有的汉字中，并没有以“男”为部首的字，却有数百个以“女”为部首的字。且不谈孰尊孰卑，这本身就反映了一个失衡的社会文化观念。
在此，先分析“女”这个字的产生与意义。
许慎的《说文解字》（下文皆简称《说文》）解释：“女，妇人也。象形。” “女”字在甲骨文中有记载。甲骨文中“女”字，其字形作两臂在胸前交叉，屈膝而跪之势，或者说像妇人蹲踞操作之形。 “女”字亦有者解释为一人敛手跪地之形地或为背后缚手之形，从而反映了远古掠夺婚之社会习俗。后在隶定时字形左转而成“女”。无论何种解释，“女”的字形仍然清楚地反映了古代妇女在家庭中的低下地位。
从“女”的字除了以其为部首创出的许多字以外，从其原形演变出来或亦指妇女的汉字也有许多。如：“母”、“帚” 、“负”等。“母”，甲骨文作 ，与“女”本为一字，卜辞“母庚”、“母辛”或做“女庚”、“女辛”，便可为证，后以前有二乳者为母。《说文》：“母，牧也，从女，象怀子形，一曰象乳子也。” “ 帚”（妇）字，《说文•女部》解释为：“服也，从女持帚，洒扫也。”《曲礼》也说：“ 帚，服也。言其进行以服事君子也。”这都反映妇女在家中是服侍于人，从事服役劳动。妇女在古籍中还通作“负”。《汉书•高帝纪》 ：“常从王媪武负贳酒”。《烈女传》：“魏曲沃负者，魏大夫如耳之母也。”这两句引语中的“负”都是妇的意思。因此，“负”和“妇”除有同音假借的关系外，“负”还表达了背负任重，必须承担繁重的劳动，如奴隶之服役之意义。基于这些例字不涉及“女”部首，在此仅略述带过。
分类
笔者以《辞源》与《新华字典》（90年重排本）作为“古”、“今”之代表。翻查出前者收录以“女”为部首的（包括“女”字本身）字共177个，后者则因收纳一些古文字（现已不用的字）而有253字。这些字都可加以大致分类归纳。请参考下表：
序号 类别 例字 *
（一） 亲属称谓 奶、妈、妹、姐、姑、妯、姆、娘、钋、婶、媳、姨、姊、娣、婿、姒
（二） 一般称谓 妪、姥、媪、嬷、妞、妮、嫫
（三） 姓氏 姜、媛、姬、姚、妲
（四） 生理现象 娠、娩、妊
（五） 男女关系 妻、妾、嫔、妃、婕、妤、婚、姻、嫁、娶
（六） 体态、仪容 婀、娜、娉、婷、妙、妩、妍、姗、姿、娑、婉、娥、娟、婵、媚
（七） 身份 妓、婊、娼、婢、奴
（八） 其他 妒、嫉、嫌、 、姓、奸、妥、好
* 例字所举的仅为例字，并未收纳全部的字。
* 加黑字为下文将分析之字。
在笔者的大略统计中，除了称谓、生理现象与姓氏之外，大部分色“女”部首字都是形容女的外貌、身份特征、男女关系及其他（多只品格、操守）。而在“其他”一栏里，绝大部份的字在今天的字义里都是带贬义的，而且其程度还颇深。在下文中，笔者将从当中某些字的产生及演变观看当时妇女的社会地位，并作分析与总结。
“女”部首――选字分析
婚
会意字。本为“昏”字， 本义是黄昏。 因为古人的婚礼都在黄昏举行，“昏”就渐渐从黄昏引申出婚姻的意思。起初，“昏”兼表几个意义。《诗经》中还没有“婚”字， 只有“昏”：《诗经•邶风•谷风》：“宴尔新昏，如兄如弟。”后来加上“女”部首，除了为了区分，也因为女子是在黄昏嫁出去的。《说文》：“妇家也。礼，取妇以昏时。妇人阴也，故曰婚。”
嫁
会意字。“女”部首与“家”，指的是女子进入一个家，成为那一家的一部分。《辞源》中还有另一解释，为“卖”，见《韩非子•六反》：“天饥岁荒，嫁妻买子者，必是家也。”
娶
会意字。本写作“取”。《说文》解释为“取妇也”，见《诗经•幽风•伐柯》：“取妻如何？匪媒不得。”“取”“女子”，关系到上古的婚姻习俗。当时有“抢婚”之习俗，是在黄昏时分把女子从她的娘家抢过来，带有强制性与欺压性。这个习俗也体现在造字上：“取”在“女”之上，有欺压女子的意味。
由此可见，女子之价值犹如货品，可以随意买卖掠夺。就是在婚姻上也仅为男性之附属品。
妾
象形字。古文献中，“臣”、“妾”多指地位低下者。如《左传》：宣公十二年“使臣妾之”，襄公十年“臣妾多逃”，僖公十七年“男人为臣，女人为妾”， 昭公元年“买妾不知姓则卜之”等都指出“妾”是从市场买来的女子。
《说文》：“妾，有罪女子给事之得接于君者。从 女。春秋传云：‘女为人妾’。妾，不娉也。”这里说的“有罪女子”时指出犯刑律被没入为奴的女子，或是战俘的妻室。“接于君者”是说有罪女子除了做工以外，还要尽人妾的责任侍御于君王。郭沫若认为“妾”是黥额之妇女，女子头上有“辛”，并非装饰品而是刑具，表示为受刑之人，或像以头顶载重物质之女奴。
但亦有另一说，认为妾字在商代卜辞中，是妻字、母字的同义词，丝毫没有女奴隶的意思。如示壬之妻妣庚，在同一时期武丁卜辞中，就被称以妾、妻、母三种称呼。可见且、妻、母三字同义，相当于后世的内人、太太、娘子等。但这一说还未被广泛接受。笔者也叫认同于“妾”为奴之说法。
无论哪一种解释，一般上都表明了“妾”是女奴，作为“次妻”，乃奴隶主淫威所迫。从卜辞中的妾被用作牺牲看，殷代的“妾”是奴隶。可见早在奴隶社会，妇女的地位便很低下。妇女成为服侍男人的奴隶，担负繁重的劳役。商代以后，“妾”慢慢进入奴隶家中，成为其妻室，并渐渐地提升地位，摆脱奴隶的身份，但性质上仍然摆脱不了奴隶的命运。
奴
“奴”是女奴，加“手”（指“又”），表示是在战争中俘获的战犯（及其家属），或者是捕来的犯罪之人。《说文》：“奴，奴婢，皆古罪人也。”《周礼》的女奴成为“奚”，《说文》写作 奚：“ 奚，女隶也。” 古代“女”、“奴”同音。三字石经中，“怒”做“ ”便可印证。
古代的“奴”并非单为女性，以包括男子，男、女所事之事不同。并且，男奴之数目未必比女奴少。因而推测，奴以“手”取“女”是认为女性身份较男性卑贱。上文也提到：古代“女”、“奴”同音。因此更加强笔者的推测之合理性。在宋代以后，“奴”甚至成为妇女的谦称，便可制造“奴”字本就以女子为纲本。
婢
字形由一妾（此指奴仆）手持大扇（宫扇）。古代持扇的女奴必是君王或贵族们的贴身之人，故后来称贴身女奴为婢。以后字形变成形声兼会意：卑声，亦有卑贱之义。“婢”与“奴”近义，唯一的分别是前者专指侍候君王高官的女家奴。
娟
《辞源》解释为明媚，美好之义，但《说文》却解释为：“娟，徙隶所居也。一曰女牢。一曰亭部。”指的就是监牢。美好之义应为后来的引申义。“娟”原本表示的是如奴女反抗，就会受到刑罚。此字以“女”为偏旁，似有恫吓女奴之一，已有贬低女性的意味。
由此可见，“妾“、“奴”、“婢”、“娟”等字都有其共性，即贬低女性尊严，皆为奴仆身份，说明了上古社会妇女已经失去任何平等地位。
jian1 (三女)
《说文》：“厶（今借用私字）也，从三女。”段注：“厶下曰：奸袤也，引申为凡 宄之称，俗作 ，其后竟用奸字。”是指凡邪恶不能公开的事为奸。字从三女，因古代妇女多以无经济权，多依附男人，自然心胸偏窄气量狭小，故以“厶（私）”释之。
奸
《说文》：“犯淫也，从女干声”。段注：“此字为犯 淫之罪，非即 字也。”因此，此奸与 不同，指的是为法制那女关系、行为，常与“奸淫”作一词。在此必须一题。
与奸虽所指不尽相同，但意义相近，所指的皆为不堪启齿，违反伦理之事，前者仅为自私而已，却用了三个女字代表，对女性是一种毫无忌讳的羞辱，便是上古社会父权统治者为了巩固地位而不惜把一切罪过推诸于女性。
妥
《说文》当中并没有“妥”字，是许慎遗漏了。从甲骨文中看，“妥”的字形是一只手按着一个女子。既有爱抚之义，亦有欺压义。从此可见，女性是男性的玩物。
好
从商代铭文看出是女包子之形，“子”在左、右均可。商为“子”姓氏族，自做“好”、“ ”，这是母系社会生活之遗留，如舜，姓“伪”，周，姓“姬”，还有姜姓均从“女”。有子即有后代，故好坏之好是后起义。
这是为少数以“女”为部首，却又不带贬义的字。一般上这样的情况指在指妇女身理现象时出现，如：妊、娠等。
综上所述，据笔者观察，许多带“女”部首的字的创字意图可分为三种：一、纯粹为了区分两性关系，如：亲属称谓；二、母系社会遗留下来的，如：姓氏；三、为了巩固父权统治而故意用以贬低妇女形象或地位的，如：身份与“其他”（请参见上表）。此外，在此欲举出的一点是，许多用以赞美女性姿态的字或词，其实并不一定是出于对女性的尊重，而是男性把女性当作观赏物时创造出来形容女性的字，很多都只停留在表面外貌上，仅对于肉体上的“欣赏”，这在很大的程度上，就其创作意图而论，亦是间接贬低女性的。
我们也看到妇女地位并非一开始就低贱的。它有一个过程。从氏族社会到商代到周代，妇女的宗法地位每况愈下。她们由氏族的主干，下降为家庭的附庸。以往拥有的宗法地位转让给了男性。但是若以商代和周代的妇女相比较，商代妇女的宗法地位还是高的。因为她们死后还可以独立受到祭祀，并有一定的个人财富。汉字最初产生在中国原始社会后期和奴隶社会前期，这个过渡时期介于夏、商、周三代之间，因此女性地位还未完全沦落，不可能在这时造出许多带有极深贬义的字。很多贬义都是后人另造出来，或引申，或假借，或强加于上的。
结论
文字，可以充分地反映一个时期的社会、人文及精神面貌。随着社会的发展，文字也在不断地演变。从一般的规律看，文字的发展变化总是从形象到抽象，从感性到理性，从复杂到简单。在经过了岁月的洗礼与演变，许多本来带着歧视心态造出的字、词渐渐为后人用以赞美及提高妇女地位。随着生产的发展，它并不要求男子对妻子的专一，因而奴隶制与一夫一妻制可以并存，且其观念至今仍然存在。
汉字的发展趋势告诉我们：妇女的社会地位千百年来只有一再降低，没有抬头过（除了武则天时期例外）。这从自古以来，从来没有女性被称为“圣人”、“贤人”等形容品德修养突出的尊号，反而以“贞节”标榜女性便可见一斑。
如果按之以史实，则妇女可以说是广义上的奴隶。其地位只有在近代才得以提升，从而也给本来带歧视心态造出的字添上了褒义，为妇女千百年来受的屈辱平反。
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编按：女人的命好苦哦！（以前苦，现在也是苦~）
又：文中一些“空格”是古字，因为我无法打出来，所以是manually添上去的，在此就看不到啦。
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从“女”部首看古代妇女社会地位
导论
人类历史上最古老的表意文字有四种，当今仅存的却只有中国的汉字，其他三种文字都已消失。汉字，之所以能延续至今，和其与文化之紧密联系不无关系。文字与社会之关系是文字产生的最原始依据。从文化学的角度看，文字是文化的一种载体。因为它记载了文化发展的历史轨迹和丰富成果，是传播文化的最快捷手段。文字的产生标志着社会文明的划时代进步。张世禄先生在1923年的一篇文章《文字上之古代社会观》中便指出：“居今日而欲知茫昧之古代社会，史策既无徵考，则惟有求诸古来之余形遗迹，俾可见一斑而已。……则此文字者，诚有史以前，先民遗迹之所留，曷藉以窥政俗之梗概，以补史策所未及者乎。” 可见，汉字的的文化、社会与历史代表性之重大意义。
简论文字之内涵，有三个基本要素：形、音、义。表音文字采取的是概念――语音――字形的联系路线，而表意文字采取的是概念――自然物象――字形的联系线路。中国文字属于后者，同时又建立在古代的哲学讲求“观物取象”的基础上（即取万物之象，加工成象征的意义符号），是把对抽象思维同形象思维集于一体的创字法。现存的最早汉字――甲骨文当初便是由日常生活中抽取灵感的图形文字，有着极强的叙述性。因此，从汉字中，我们看到了汉民族注重联想、类比、物性联系的经验型与理性思维。
在此文中，笔者将把焦点放在探讨汉字中“女”部首等字的产生及引申义如何反映出古代不同时期的妇女之社会地位。
正文
人类世界分为两性：男与女。但是我们都知道，在所有的文化中，皆无两性平等的现象。中国亦不例外。虽然人类在很早以前是由母系社会开始的，但是那是远古时期，在人类进入社会文明时期起始，便是由男人掌权，而女性在男性的强权下遭受到了日趋严重的压迫与剥削。这一不平等的文化现象与观念也充分地反映在汉民族的文字上。在所有的汉字中，并没有以“男”为部首的字，却有数百个以“女”为部首的字。且不谈孰尊孰卑，这本身就反映了一个失衡的社会文化观念。
在此，先分析“女”这个字的产生与意义。
许慎的《说文解字》（下文皆简称《说文》）解释：“女，妇人也。象形。” “女”字在甲骨文中有记载。甲骨文中“女”字，其字形作两臂在胸前交叉，屈膝而跪之势，或者说像妇人蹲踞操作之形。 “女”字亦有者解释为一人敛手跪地之形地或为背后缚手之形，从而反映了远古掠夺婚之社会习俗。后在隶定时字形左转而成“女”。无论何种解释，“女”的字形仍然清楚地反映了古代妇女在家庭中的低下地位。
从“女”的字除了以其为部首创出的许多字以外，从其原形演变出来或亦指妇女的汉字也有许多。如：“母”、“帚” 、“负”等。“母”，甲骨文作 ，与“女”本为一字，卜辞“母庚”、“母辛”或做“女庚”、“女辛”，便可为证，后以前有二乳者为母。《说文》：“母，牧也，从女，象怀子形，一曰象乳子也。” “ 帚”（妇）字，《说文•女部》解释为：“服也，从女持帚，洒扫也。”《曲礼》也说：“ 帚，服也。言其进行以服事君子也。”这都反映妇女在家中是服侍于人，从事服役劳动。妇女在古籍中还通作“负”。《汉书•高帝纪》 ：“常从王媪武负贳酒”。《烈女传》：“魏曲沃负者，魏大夫如耳之母也。”这两句引语中的“负”都是妇的意思。因此，“负”和“妇”除有同音假借的关系外，“负”还表达了背负任重，必须承担繁重的劳动，如奴隶之服役之意义。基于这些例字不涉及“女”部首，在此仅略述带过。
分类
笔者以《辞源》与《新华字典》（90年重排本）作为“古”、“今”之代表。翻查出前者收录以“女”为部首的（包括“女”字本身）字共177个，后者则因收纳一些古文字（现已不用的字）而有253字。这些字都可加以大致分类归纳。请参考下表：
序号 类别 例字 *
（一） 亲属称谓 奶、妈、妹、姐、姑、妯、姆、娘、钋、婶、媳、姨、姊、娣、婿、姒
（二） 一般称谓 妪、姥、媪、嬷、妞、妮、嫫
（三） 姓氏 姜、媛、姬、姚、妲
（四） 生理现象 娠、娩、妊
（五） 男女关系 妻、妾、嫔、妃、婕、妤、婚、姻、嫁、娶
（六） 体态、仪容 婀、娜、娉、婷、妙、妩、妍、姗、姿、娑、婉、娥、娟、婵、媚
（七） 身份 妓、婊、娼、婢、奴
（八） 其他 妒、嫉、嫌、 、姓、奸、妥、好
* 例字所举的仅为例字，并未收纳全部的字。
* 加黑字为下文将分析之字。
在笔者的大略统计中，除了称谓、生理现象与姓氏之外，大部分色“女”部首字都是形容女的外貌、身份特征、男女关系及其他（多只品格、操守）。而在“其他”一栏里，绝大部份的字在今天的字义里都是带贬义的，而且其程度还颇深。在下文中，笔者将从当中某些字的产生及演变观看当时妇女的社会地位，并作分析与总结。
“女”部首――选字分析
婚
会意字。本为“昏”字， 本义是黄昏。 因为古人的婚礼都在黄昏举行，“昏”就渐渐从黄昏引申出婚姻的意思。起初，“昏”兼表几个意义。《诗经》中还没有“婚”字， 只有“昏”：《诗经•邶风•谷风》：“宴尔新昏，如兄如弟。”后来加上“女”部首，除了为了区分，也因为女子是在黄昏嫁出去的。《说文》：“妇家也。礼，取妇以昏时。妇人阴也，故曰婚。”
嫁
会意字。“女”部首与“家”，指的是女子进入一个家，成为那一家的一部分。《辞源》中还有另一解释，为“卖”，见《韩非子•六反》：“天饥岁荒，嫁妻买子者，必是家也。”
娶
会意字。本写作“取”。《说文》解释为“取妇也”，见《诗经•幽风•伐柯》：“取妻如何？匪媒不得。”“取”“女子”，关系到上古的婚姻习俗。当时有“抢婚”之习俗，是在黄昏时分把女子从她的娘家抢过来，带有强制性与欺压性。这个习俗也体现在造字上：“取”在“女”之上，有欺压女子的意味。
由此可见，女子之价值犹如货品，可以随意买卖掠夺。就是在婚姻上也仅为男性之附属品。
妾
象形字。古文献中，“臣”、“妾”多指地位低下者。如《左传》：宣公十二年“使臣妾之”，襄公十年“臣妾多逃”，僖公十七年“男人为臣，女人为妾”， 昭公元年“买妾不知姓则卜之”等都指出“妾”是从市场买来的女子。
《说文》：“妾，有罪女子给事之得接于君者。从 女。春秋传云：‘女为人妾’。妾，不娉也。”这里说的“有罪女子”时指出犯刑律被没入为奴的女子，或是战俘的妻室。“接于君者”是说有罪女子除了做工以外，还要尽人妾的责任侍御于君王。郭沫若认为“妾”是黥额之妇女，女子头上有“辛”，并非装饰品而是刑具，表示为受刑之人，或像以头顶载重物质之女奴。
但亦有另一说，认为妾字在商代卜辞中，是妻字、母字的同义词，丝毫没有女奴隶的意思。如示壬之妻妣庚，在同一时期武丁卜辞中，就被称以妾、妻、母三种称呼。可见且、妻、母三字同义，相当于后世的内人、太太、娘子等。但这一说还未被广泛接受。笔者也叫认同于“妾”为奴之说法。
无论哪一种解释，一般上都表明了“妾”是女奴，作为“次妻”，乃奴隶主淫威所迫。从卜辞中的妾被用作牺牲看，殷代的“妾”是奴隶。可见早在奴隶社会，妇女的地位便很低下。妇女成为服侍男人的奴隶，担负繁重的劳役。商代以后，“妾”慢慢进入奴隶家中，成为其妻室，并渐渐地提升地位，摆脱奴隶的身份，但性质上仍然摆脱不了奴隶的命运。
奴
“奴”是女奴，加“手”（指“又”），表示是在战争中俘获的战犯（及其家属），或者是捕来的犯罪之人。《说文》：“奴，奴婢，皆古罪人也。”《周礼》的女奴成为“奚”，《说文》写作 奚：“ 奚，女隶也。” 古代“女”、“奴”同音。三字石经中，“怒”做“ ”便可印证。
古代的“奴”并非单为女性，以包括男子，男、女所事之事不同。并且，男奴之数目未必比女奴少。因而推测，奴以“手”取“女”是认为女性身份较男性卑贱。上文也提到：古代“女”、“奴”同音。因此更加强笔者的推测之合理性。在宋代以后，“奴”甚至成为妇女的谦称，便可制造“奴”字本就以女子为纲本。
婢
字形由一妾（此指奴仆）手持大扇（宫扇）。古代持扇的女奴必是君王或贵族们的贴身之人，故后来称贴身女奴为婢。以后字形变成形声兼会意：卑声，亦有卑贱之义。“婢”与“奴”近义，唯一的分别是前者专指侍候君王高官的女家奴。
娟
《辞源》解释为明媚，美好之义，但《说文》却解释为：“娟，徙隶所居也。一曰女牢。一曰亭部。”指的就是监牢。美好之义应为后来的引申义。“娟”原本表示的是如奴女反抗，就会受到刑罚。此字以“女”为偏旁，似有恫吓女奴之一，已有贬低女性的意味。
由此可见，“妾“、“奴”、“婢”、“娟”等字都有其共性，即贬低女性尊严，皆为奴仆身份，说明了上古社会妇女已经失去任何平等地位。
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《说文》：“厶（今借用私字）也，从三女。”段注：“厶下曰：奸袤也，引申为凡 宄之称，俗作 ，其后竟用奸字。”是指凡邪恶不能公开的事为奸。字从三女，因古代妇女多以无经济权，多依附男人，自然心胸偏窄气量狭小，故以“厶（私）”释之。
奸
《说文》：“犯淫也，从女干声”。段注：“此字为犯 淫之罪，非即 字也。”因此，此奸与 不同，指的是为法制那女关系、行为，常与“奸淫”作一词。在此必须一题。
与奸虽所指不尽相同，但意义相近，所指的皆为不堪启齿，违反伦理之事，前者仅为自私而已，却用了三个女字代表，对女性是一种毫无忌讳的羞辱，便是上古社会父权统治者为了巩固地位而不惜把一切罪过推诸于女性。
妥
《说文》当中并没有“妥”字，是许慎遗漏了。从甲骨文中看，“妥”的字形是一只手按着一个女子。既有爱抚之义，亦有欺压义。从此可见，女性是男性的玩物。
好
从商代铭文看出是女包子之形，“子”在左、右均可。商为“子”姓氏族，自做“好”、“ ”，这是母系社会生活之遗留，如舜，姓“伪”，周，姓“姬”，还有姜姓均从“女”。有子即有后代，故好坏之好是后起义。
这是为少数以“女”为部首，却又不带贬义的字。一般上这样的情况指在指妇女身理现象时出现，如：妊、娠等。
综上所述，据笔者观察，许多带“女”部首的字的创字意图可分为三种：一、纯粹为了区分两性关系，如：亲属称谓；二、母系社会遗留下来的，如：姓氏；三、为了巩固父权统治而故意用以贬低妇女形象或地位的，如：身份与“其他”（请参见上表）。此外，在此欲举出的一点是，许多用以赞美女性姿态的字或词，其实并不一定是出于对女性的尊重，而是男性把女性当作观赏物时创造出来形容女性的字，很多都只停留在表面外貌上，仅对于肉体上的“欣赏”，这在很大的程度上，就其创作意图而论，亦是间接贬低女性的。
我们也看到妇女地位并非一开始就低贱的。它有一个过程。从氏族社会到商代到周代，妇女的宗法地位每况愈下。她们由氏族的主干，下降为家庭的附庸。以往拥有的宗法地位转让给了男性。但是若以商代和周代的妇女相比较，商代妇女的宗法地位还是高的。因为她们死后还可以独立受到祭祀，并有一定的个人财富。汉字最初产生在中国原始社会后期和奴隶社会前期，这个过渡时期介于夏、商、周三代之间，因此女性地位还未完全沦落，不可能在这时造出许多带有极深贬义的字。很多贬义都是后人另造出来，或引申，或假借，或强加于上的。
结论
文字，可以充分地反映一个时期的社会、人文及精神面貌。随着社会的发展，文字也在不断地演变。从一般的规律看，文字的发展变化总是从形象到抽象，从感性到理性，从复杂到简单。在经过了岁月的洗礼与演变，许多本来带着歧视心态造出的字、词渐渐为后人用以赞美及提高妇女地位。随着生产的发展，它并不要求男子对妻子的专一，因而奴隶制与一夫一妻制可以并存，且其观念至今仍然存在。
汉字的发展趋势告诉我们：妇女的社会地位千百年来只有一再降低，没有抬头过（除了武则天时期例外）。这从自古以来，从来没有女性被称为“圣人”、“贤人”等形容品德修养突出的尊号，反而以“贞节”标榜女性便可见一斑。
如果按之以史实，则妇女可以说是广义上的奴隶。其地位只有在近代才得以提升，从而也给本来带歧视心态造出的字添上了褒义，为妇女千百年来受的屈辱平反。
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